Got invited to dinner tonight, but it meant leaving my mum on her own. The last carer came at 6pm but had nothing to do. Mum had come back from her club wet and having thrown up on the transport, so I had already changed her and got her ready for bed. As soon as the carer left and I had my coat on, mum then asked for a cup of tea, commode, fan etc clearly panicking that I was going to leave her for hours on end. By the time I arrived at the restaurant, I was late and looked a mess. Everyone else looked so calm and relaxed and, as it turned out, had far worse things going on in their lives than I had.
I was actually home by 9.30pm but managed to eat and drink far too much in that couple of hours, on the excuse of being stressed – why do I do that? I go out determined to have a salad and end up having the most fattening dish on the menu plus a desert! I seemed to be set on a downward spiral heading towards obesity and diabetes. I really need to take some control and responsibility over my diet and actually exercise – I have one of those ‘pay and don’t go’ gym memberships!